I hope I got me math right if not PLEASE Slap me with a random blunt object!
I do feel better expressing my feelings in my past journal and getting the comments I've recieved helped me a lot in more ways than one. And I love you all for it even if you just read, didn't leave a comment. It just shows I know people can listen and it makes me feel better.
That's a question that's always been on my mind for years... Why must life be unfair to the good people? Why must it be fair to the bad people? Then again it's unfair to everyone in general... To everyone mentally, physically, emotionally.. Abuse Verbal Words Or just fucking with someone's head
I've had my issues of accidentally snapping at friends.. finding out I've actually hurt them emotionally.. it really does bring me to tears in guilt because I knew I hurt someone I love as a friend.
I've felt so emotionless for a few months like I don't care like I never cared .... I used to always be happy and everything.. I always put on a happy face online so I don't worry my friends. Sometimes it's too much I can't hold it in anymore.. I need someone to talk too But I can never bring myself to speak. Maybe I just have Axiety problems I'm so damn emotional and get upset way too easy or I flare up in anger to quickly without realizing it.
I don't know a lot of stuff has been going on in real life for me that's greatly effected me alot mentally and emotionally. I aint saying this for attention so if anyone has to say "Oh blah you're just doing this for attention!" Well Fuck you
My brother's chest surgery he had, (got a staff infection and nearly died from it.) We went bankrupt and lost our house, but I'm glad we're out of there, that place had black mold that was making us all sick. my dad lost his job due to a severe back surgery I've told you guys about (from that infection he has nerve damage but he can still walk.) and the fact I almost LOST my dad... I've lost two real life friends, one to a car accident and the other to suicide..
It just seems like life doesn't give a flying fuck to the GOOD people, those who help charities, or are friendly and help strangers.. No it has to bite us in the ass and make us miserable..
I'm starting to cry as I'm typing this.. I suppose it's made me feel numb throughout the years... numb to any positive emotion I've wanted to feel.
it's made me feel depressed over the years... it slowly started developing into it, I even had my mom schedual an appointment for.. as sad as that sounds I have to wait until Feb. 1st to go to it so I have to deal being this way until then maybe they can help determin if it's just axiety or depression that's causing me to me this way.
We have over a foot of snow here where I live Geneva, Ohio, USA. @_@ It's well over my knee's And our winter storm keeps getting extended Probably 4 or 5 days we've kept getting snow. And probably the worst winter storm in several years here. Every year previous of this we haven't gotten this much snow. But I hope it stays though I want to go sledding but the snow is really light & fluffy, not exactly 'sticky' if you will.
I remember last year we had the worst ice storm several tree's were down in my home town as well as some power outages & school's were closed. @3@;
Anyway If you want to join me on iScribble I'll be on it as... LinkatonFuraito ....... And for goodness sake... no annoying me or causing drama dsaklhk If I seem to become annoyed it's because I get questioned a lot but I'm trying on working to tolerate it and be more relaxed.
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